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Start with LOVE

There is so much happening around us – locally in the Twin Cities, nationally, internationally. It’s enough to make you want to bow your head with the weight of it. It’s hard not to feel helpless, hopeless, afraid.

I don’t know much, but I know this:

One good thought can make a difference.

One kind action can make a difference.

One authentic exchange with another can make a difference.

One true smile with eye contact can make a difference.

Giving help when someone asks can make a difference.

Walking and talking and living in the space of love can make a difference.

We’re all leaves on the same tree.

One good thought -> One kind word -> One tender action.

One drop -> One ripple -> One Wave.

Namaste. S


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To Spanx or Not To Spanx?

I’ve been thinking a lot about how aging gives you a different perspective. Back when I was young I was more concerned with “What do I look like?” And now, as a middle-aged woman I am more concerned with, “How do I feel?”

But vanity doesn’t escape me. I’m getting ready to take my daughter to a ball. I pulled out my trusty full-length classic black CK from when I used to need such things. Ten+ years ago…

And let’s just say that things have changed.

It fits (wildly proud of this) but it’s…different.

Since I last wore the dress to black tie fundraisers and the Emmy’s…I’ve had two children and gotten older. My skin is different. My body is different. I’m different.

My first reaction to it was OH.MY.GOD.!!!!!!!

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My second reaction to it was to start looking on the internet for Spanx.

About a half an hour into looking at various ‘support’ options…I started writing a post to my mommy group here in Saint Paul. I knew they’d hold me gently as I embraced the idea that I was going to have to buy some Spanx. Then…it turned into this blog. Because I realized that I wasn’t the only one to war with this decision.

I love myself. I love where I am. I love my beautiful body. It’s not perfect, but it suits me. And everything I stand for as a trainer is all about loving on your sweet self.

So isn’t buying Spanx kind of buying into the idea that I have to look a different way?

I think so. So I stepped slowly away from the girdles and support wear.

I need to think on this, but I’m not sure if I can get around buying it…it buys into something that makes me sad. That I need to suck it all in and be a certain way in order to be beautiful. And…that’s bullshit. I’m just right as I am.

Now…ask me again when I put the dress on to take my girl to the ball…I might have a crazed visit to the department store. But for now…I’m going to sit with it. I’m going to sit with the idea that I’m perfect as I am.

And so are you.

Peace, Sarah


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Issues in your Tissues

Do you think we hold things in our bodies? Physical trauma sure. What about emotional trauma? Do you think we kind of stick stuff away in little boxes?  In our minds, certainly. But what about in our bodies? Do you think we can have issues in our tissues?

Last month, I had my quarterly massage appointment with the amazing Stephanie. She does deep tissue work and also does energy work as she massages. As she was working on me, she ran her hands over the top part of my hips. All of a sudden, I burst out crying…and it wasn’t from pain. I was a little embarrassed and didn’t understand exactly what was happening. All I could think to myself was, “All my hopes and dreams were held in those two little areas….”

With her touch, Stephanie helped me to open a door that I’d locked – sealed – closed off…awhile ago.

The area she touched is the area my husband would put hormone shots twice daily for each round of in vitro fertilization that we went through. Five rounds. Three months each. Two shots a day.

I think I thought that because I had children…that it was time to tuck all of the feelings that go along with in vitro away and just be thankful that it worked.

And I am. I am SO grateful. There is no gratitude like the gratitude of a mother who receives the gift of a child by any means.

But also, tucked away in my body and unbeknownst to me were areas that I had not processed.

Pain. Sadness. Grief. Loss. Terror. Anger.

IVF taxed every aspect of me, us. Emotional, Spiritual, Physical, Psychological, Relational, and probably a dozen more that I just can’t think of right now.

But I tucked it away…and replaced it with JOY. And DELIGHT. And GRATITUDE. Because it worked and I had two beautiful babies!!

And now, I realize…I’ve got issues in my tissues. There’s stuff that I’d locked away that needs to be unpacked and felt. My husband asked, “How are you going to do that?” Well…I’m not really sure. But I think more body work with people I trust to hold me gently as I feel my way through this. When stuff bubbles up, I’ll let it come. I’m ready now to feel instead of stuffing it away. I’m giving myself permission to see the shadow side of this experience that we went through in addition to the gratitude.

It leads me to wonder about all the stuff we stick away in order to not feel. Does it result in dis-ease? Is part of wellness allowing for all of the feelings instead of denying them? I’m kind of thinking yes…

Peace, Sarah