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Loud & Crowded

Most people who know me well know that I don’t like crowds. I’m not sure exactly when it started, but somewhere along the way the noise and the number of people around me really started to affect me. I started avoiding places that were Loud and Crowded.

So to take the kids to Disneyland/world…I had to mentally and emotionally ‘charge up’ ahead of time and at each, we only spent a day. Same goes for waterparks. And the school Carnival. And the Mall of America. And…well – seemingly anywhere there are fun things for kids to do, I have to ‘charge-up,’ get ready, armor up.

After the events, I am super depleted and very quiet.

Are you like this?

During Yoga Teacher Training – my teacher Teri was talking about how almost her entire life she was painfully shy. She could have NEVER imagined standing in front of groups of people teaching..and yet, there she was (and so relaxed and teaching with such ease.) She didn’t let her shyness make her life smaller…she pushed against her edges. It took practice, but she was able to expand past her shyness.

I walked up to her after class and said, “So…could it be possible to keep my center and well of energy in say…A CROWD?” She said, “Sure.”

Huh. I walked away knowing I’d have to sit with that one for a bit. I always thought that Loud and Crowded drained ME. That THEY were the culprits. But what if I could stay on my center and not allow it? What if I could not let anything or anyone drain me?

Yesterday my husband and I got tickets to the Green Bay / Seattle game at Lambeau Stadium. This is his idea of HEAVEN. He thrives in crowds and with a lot of people.

So in the middle of it, it was so thick that I had to walk behind him – I was gripping his hand for dear life. People were all around me and the DIN was unbelievable. I found myself shallow breathing and really losing my center.

I shut my eyes…and I took a deep breath…and I willed myself back to my center…to my calm place…to the place where I hang out most regularly. And I kept doing it throughout the evening.

I’d like to tell you that it wasn’t exhausting…it was. But it was also FUN. I’d like to tell you that we didn’t spend almost the entire car ride today in silence…but we did. I’d like to say that I was full up and ready to go another round for something Loud and Crowded…but I’m not.

Here’s what I learned…I don’t want to spend my life avoiding Loud and Crowded. Because often FUN accompanies them. But what I may start practicing is being mindful during Loud and Crowded situations so that maybe I can keep more and more reserves of energy. Maybe then I can feel more FULL and less DEPLETED.

Practice, practice, practice.
Much peace,


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New Stuff – Leaning in

Back when my husband was my boyfriend and we were both licking our wounds from bruised hearts – we would remind each other again and again, “Lean in.” (This was before this was a hot button couple of words and a superselling book…)

For us it meant – Lean into our fear. Lean into each other. Lean into our hope. Lean into our belief. Lean in.

Because this place, though frightening, is really fertile ground. It’s a place where you can throw in a couple of seeds and it will bear fruit. What kind of fruit may surprise you…but trust me, it will bear fruit.

There’s a bunch of new stuff on my plate lately that scares me…and that makes me super uncomfortable. Who doesn’t like to hang out in safety? But I KNOW from all of my experiences leaning in, that these experiences will bear me fruit beyond my imaginings.

Think on it…what are you putting off? What are you avoiding? What makes you nervous? What do you want to do, but are too afraid to try?

Lean in. You got this. Trust. There’s fruit in abundance.

Much peace,



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Vacation Blues – Part 1

I love vacation. It is a time to kind of shut my brain off and do what I want instead of doing what I ‘should’ be doing. When my husband and I got back from our honeymoon years ago, we both wondered how to bring that feeling you have on vacation into life.

Every vacation since, that idea has been on my mind…How do you bring that vacation feeling into life?

This week – I was trying to figure out what it was…that I didn’t have to worry about while on vacation.

  • Think about the calendar.
  • Think about responsibility.
  • Think about work.
  • Think about the house.
  • Think about scheduling life.
  • Think about what I eat (you kind of have to do your best on vacation…)
  • Think about social media.

So.  Life.  All of the stuff on my list…it’s life. And my life brings me JOY AND PLEASURE…so why does it feel so good to drop it?

Maybe the question isn’t how to bring vacation into life – but how can I make my life feel like a vacation?

I have this quote on my Vision Board and it says this, “Any activity done with love and presence is a spiritual practice.”

Hm. What if we brought the joy and the relaxed into the mundane or stressful?

I’mma gonna think on that and if you have any thoughts, lemme know.

Namaste, S


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At the end of my classes – I pass around a Ball jar filled with little strips of paper. I tell the class, “Take whichever one makes your fingertips tickle.” intention jar

They walk away with an affirmation. It may seem silly, but I believe in the POWER.OF.WORDS. What we say to ourselves goes straight to our subconscious mind and can make a huge difference in our life outlook.

Imagine telling yourself all of the time, “That was dumb. Why do I always do such dumb things? I am so stupid.”

Firstly…ack. It makes my heart hurt. But think about how much of this subconscious negative self-talk we engage in. About our bodies…about our minds…about our faces…about our interactions. We BOMBARD our inner self with negative zingers all the time.

What if we stopped? What if we changed our words to affirm ourselves, to love ourselves, to comfort ourselves, to build ourselves up? What if the words we poured into our minds and bodies and spirits were beautiful and loving?

I think we’d be a hell of a lot happier. Inside and out.  And happiness? That’s part of wellness.

I put the words from those little strips of paper on some beautiful flowers my daughter colored. And every day for the month of September, I’ll send them to your e-mailbox.  If you’re interested, please send me your e-mail address in the subject line to turinofitness@gmail.com

In the interim, see if you can start catching the negative and stop it. Then see if you can insert some gentle, some love, some sweet care.

Namaste, S

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The Gratitude Journal

There’s a time in my life I don’t revisit much. It happened. It’s over. Move along. Lately though, I’ve noticed how many gems I carry with me in my pockets because of that time. These gems were tumbled in heartbreak, betrayal and relationship addiction, but are now shiny and smooth and…really important. And though I wouldn’t wish that time or those feelings on my worst enemy, I am grateful for the experience because it taught me some great stuff.

One of the best of these was a Gratitude Journal.

At the worst of this time, when I was putting one foot in front of another plodding through repetitive heartbreak and manipulation…I read a great book.  It was called, “Simple Abundance” by Sarah Ban Breathnach .

The book was so beautiful and simple and it helped me to remember that during tough stuff, you can find simple things to be grateful for.

Her recommendation was to start a Gratitude Journal – and write down 3 things that you were grateful for in your life. So, day after day for a while here is what I wrote…every day…

  • A roof over my head.
  • Food in my refrigerator.
  • Friends and family who love me.

What is so funny about this to me is that now, I could fill a book on a daily basis of the things I am grateful for…heck I’m grateful for EVERYTHING now.

But it started here…with these three things and these were all I could think of at the time.  I remember my friend Antay said after I whined to him for the millionth time about my desire to have all of these remaining feelings just to GO.AWAY. He wisely said, “You can’t tip the bucket of love over Sarah; you have to let it slowly evaporate.”

So as I climbed out of the pit, I would write my three things down. And soon, it turned into 5 things and they were new and different. And after that, they became too countless to write…

Gratitude is a powerful healer. It puts you in the position of seeing all things good and bad as opportunity. It grants hope. It changes your goggles from the inside out. All of a sudden, I started being thankful for the sunrise, for the rain tapping on the cars outside of my apartment window, for a walk around a lake, for a job, for people who enriched my life, and for CHALLENGES. Because it is within challenges that we grow…especially if we can stay grateful for them. I am even grateful for the heartache…

The Gratitude Journal is a simple tool, but a lifechanging one. Give it a go. And when you’re in the midst of your life and you are pissed off, frustrated, stressed, or in pain – take a deep breath (or 5) and think of 3 things in that situation that you can be thankful for.  Then, keep doing it.

May your gems shine.




Dancing with the Devil

There’s this amazing woman and great writer – her name is Wendy and her blog is called Athletic Monkey.  Check her out. She wrote this incredible post that just made me well up.  It’s called The Bucket List. Thanks Wendy for sharing your story, inspiring others, and giving me the courage to write my story. Lately, I’ve had the devil scratching at the door a little more loudly because…you know…I’m older, do NOT have a perfect body, and am teaching fitness classes to people who may (or may not) look at me closely and may (or may not) judge what they see. It’s hard to keep the voices from screaming and taking over…so…here we go.  My dance with the devil:

My whole life I didn’t have to think about weight – I was tall and naturally thin.  And yet it was always swirling around me.  “You’re so thin!”  My tongue-in-cheek mom, “Skinny bitch.”  So, though I didn’t have to ‘think’ about it, I was always dealing with people’s perceptions of my weight.  My mom, like so many women, struggled with her weight, self-image, and would try various diets and exercise.  But our family life was (understatement here) challenging and she and I would self soothe over some potato chips – sour cream and onion for her….barbecue for me.  (More on that later…)

Around the time I was 40, I put on some weight…what?  Now, all of the messages that I’d received clearly about how important it was to be thin started banging loudly like a gong.  Must.lose.weight.  Now you add to that that I had just had kids and felt all the weird pressure that new moms feel to ‘get back into your pre-baby pants’ and you have a person whooooooo signs up for a marathon while pregnant with her youngest daughter for 18 months later. (insert headshake here…)

But the bite wasn’t venomous yet.

The poison came when I got my fitness certification.  “Well, I have to be super fit and lean or people won’t take me seriously or want to work with me.”  Combine training for a half Ironman with some very.clean.eating and you have a very thin Sarah.  I wasn’t ‘trying’ per se.  But the day I went to get some new jeans and was a size 4 or size 6 … and I’m 5’ 9 ½”  mmmm perhaps I’d lost some weight.

I WAS DELIGHTED.  Look at me.  Look how fit I am.  Look how thin I am.  Yessssss.  Everyone, “You look GREAT!”  “You are SO thin!”  “You look AH-MAZING!”

But it was at the expense of something really important…balance and my mental health.  I wouldn’t let anything pass my lips that was contraindicated.  I wouldn’t drink any alcohol during the week.  I exercised all the time.  I’d slipped off the edge of wellness.

Fall came.  My events were done.  I fell into a funk…nee depression.  I started comfort eating.  I started self-loathing.  I started feeling like a loser because I couldn’t control myself or my urges.  I drank wine and ate bag after bag of barbecue potato chips in front of the television set.

I was a TRAINER what was WRONG WITH ME?  What a LOOOOOSER.

I gained back the weight.  All of it.  And maybe then some.

I looked up in the spring and was freaked out.  It was shorts weather!  I was going to be teaching people soon.  I HAD TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!!

It was around this time that I realized that I was dipping my toe into something dangerous…something powerfully addictive…something that felt sticky and gross.

I read a book that changed my whole self – inside and out.  It was called “Women, Food & God” by Geneen Roth.  From that moment forward, I tried really hard to slay my dragons.  I try every day, to be in touch with myself and eat accordingly and give myself what I need.  I also try to model listening to my body for my girls.  Because if you tune in, it tells you when you’re hungry and when you’re full.  If you listen, you can tell when you are calling out for comfort…instead of potato chips.

But it’s hard work.  And as a 46 year old mom of two young girls, it is a worthy battle for me and for them.  And I will stand up for my beautiful self in the face of all of the bullshit society and marketers shovel every.damn.day.  Because I’m worthy.  My health (mental and physical) and wellness are worth it.  And that wellness is about being ABLE TO MOVE.  It’s about BEING DURABLE.  It’s about feeling STRONG AND ABLE.  It’s not about the size of my damn pants.

Peace.  Sarah


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Relaxing – A Tool for Wellness

I’ve been observing my kids as they have been at home on summer break.  They are either lounging and reading…or swimming and playing.  There’s not a lot of in between.  But when I look at them in play, even then they are relaxed.  They’re kind of relaxed all of the time.

And it got me thinking…why don’t we look at relaxation as an important, necessary part of the wellness pie?

Cuz it is.

I could go all adrenal fatigue and scientific effects of stress on you…but nah.  Instead.  I’m going to invite you to explore relaxation and how it FEELS IN YOUR BODY.  And I don’t necessarily mean lolling in front of the television all of the time (though it is an utterly lovely thing to do from time to time) but instead feel how it feels to be in the state of feeling relaxed.  The state of being at ease.

When do you feel calm?  When do you feel centered?  When do you feel at ease?  What are you doing when you feel this way?

How does your body feel when you are in this space?  Calm, easy breathing.  Relaxed body and face.  Mind calm, not racing.  Stomach unclenched.

This feeling of ease can be, with practice, brought into other areas of your life.  Even in rush hour.  Even in a stressful meeting.  Even during conflict.

Really.  It’s true.

  • Notice the feeling.
  • Explore what can bring that feeling into other parts of your day. Is it simply noticing or do you need a few deep breaths?  Do you need to stretch and move?  Do you need to close your eyes and rest for a minute?
  • Approach stress and stressful situations with the position of observer. Treat them with your highest intention, but don’t get too caught up in the swirling emotions.  This is a practice.  Be gentle with yourself.  See if you can notice when you start getting amped up, and then after noticing – see if you can bring yourself to a calm center.  It’s an interesting exploration.

Invite relaxation into your play AND work.  Invite a life of ease.  Invite calm.  See how it goes.

So much peace, Sarah


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